I feel like this is the end, will i ever make it out of this alive? how much time can I take to recuperate? Nothing big has happened, no life changing thing has crossed my path. Just time away from my God, too much time doing whatever i FEEL like doing. ugh- beware of feelings. Whatever i should do, i don't do... i do what i hate.
I read my old blogs from before I got married. I was so different then. Maybe in a good way. just so focused, even though i was in the midst of hard times, i managed to stay focused on God. How did i get here?
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?
My tears have been my food day and night, While they continually say to me, "Where is your God?"
When I remember these things, I pour out my soul within me. For I used to go with the multitude; I went with them to the house of God, With the voice of joy and praise, With a multitude that kept a pilgrim feast.
Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him For the help of His countenance.
O my God, my soul is cast down within me; Therefore I will remember You from the land of the Jordan, And from the heights of Hermon, From the Hill Mizar.
Deep calls unto deep at the noise of Your waterfalls; All Your waves and billows have gone over me.
The LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime, And in the night His song shall be with me--A prayer to the God of my life.
I will say to God my Rock, "Why have You forgotten me? Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?"
As with a breaking of my bones, My enemies reproach me, While they say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God. - Psalm 42
Have you been feeling dry, worn out, weary, like God is far from you and you don't know how to get back into sweet fellowship with him? REMEMBER the truth. our flesh is wicked and the enemy roams about like a lion seeking to devour you. God is never far, don't let emotions drain your faith. Remember that God has been with you through 6 tests, he will indeed be with you through 7. He has been clear on how to get back to him. We need to cast aside every weight and sin that so easily ensnares us and run with endurance the race which is set before us. draw near to God and he will draw near to you.
everyone says the same things "go to church, read, pray" over and over again. DON'T do it out of repetition or some formula, be compelled by the gospel. remember the great hope that we have, the heaven which awaits us where the lamb of God is the light. The new heavens, the new earth- perfect and without sin or blemish. So with this, fellowship with others, dig into the word of God- that is how He speaks to His people.
Pray, ask of God. remember that he cares for us. although he knows our frame- we are indeed as dust. But he loves us, he draws us to himself. Draw near not because you feel down, but because He is worthy. Look up to the mountains, to the oceans that roar-- if we don't praise His name, even the rocks will cry out! I want part in praising Him, i owe him my life.
It doesn't matter where you stood 5 minutes ago or even where you will stand 5 minutes from now. He has set before you death and life... CHOOSE LIFE. don't give up the fight, it is by grace, not works.
"Come, let us return to the Lord, for He has torn us, that He may heal us; He has struck us down, and he will bind us up. After two days he will revive us; on the third day He will raise us up, that we may live before Him . Let us now press on to know the Lord; His going out is sure as the dawn; he will come to us as the showers, as spring rains that water the earth."
- Hosea 6:1-3
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